lost...

wat to say... im just hurting myself and indirectly hurting him more. of my behaviour and attitude towards him... im letting my feeling running wild... i have been watching movies with u and doing things which we are not suppose to... all these to spike him or to make myself feels wanted... and the longing of the love and excited for all these years...

i love u more than i love him... it has been many many years of love... how can it be easily forgotten... i know we can never be together... cos u love another... we are just an equipment for each other.... but i know i've been waiting for u to tell me i love u all over again....