counting down the days.... 95 days left....

is another sunday, but this time, im spending it here in bahrain. missed last sunday, when i was in sg, watching rc playing football in bedok. oh well... i really cant wait to be back in sg. finally i have decided to leave this job by mid dec, and most probably before 10 dec cos i've a wedding to attend to. hehehe.... everyone seems to be getting married. wondering when's my turn... but i doubt will be any sooner anyway. rc wants to build up his career first and any other things will have to wait. he said he will be married before 35. okie... we have like 7 years to then.

today im on standby from 6am to 6pm, still keeping my fingers crossed cos now is already 9am! i'll be starting my 4 days first class C1 course tomorrow. sigh... got to study again. hope is easy... hehe... i've been sleeping so early for the pass few days when im here. n been getting up damn early loh, but today was great, i got up at 7am instead of the usual 5am! hahaha...

i've seen a bag which i really wanted to buy yesterday in zara. is only $68, why am i hesitating it to buy when the other day i bought a $115 blouse from zara sg on impulse! damn damn damn!!! sigh... oh well, guess i might have to go back to zara bahrain to get it soon, cos i think only one piece left or something.

wondering how life will be after i resigned from this job. so used to so many things. i love flying and i think i will miss it, but i dun always wanna be away from sg. but if based in sg is another story. hmm.... just got to make plans and stick to it like rc said. always have to plan for yourself.

i've been pissing rc off many times since the time im back in bahrain. so sorry... been calling and calling the usual. hate it when i go back sg and spending too much time there and getting so used to things and suddenly got to return back to bahrain... it always drives me nuts with all the missing feelings. i missed rc, i missed my doggies... i missed my home... and sometimes the arguement with my mom.

the weather here is calmer, not so hot as in the month of july and august. winter is coming soon... and night is gonna be longer i suppose. phylliz is gonna be flying back to sg tonite on duty and for the next 6 days im gonna be alone at home. dun really like tat kinda feeling. nothing nice to watch on tv here... and kinda lazy to go out to rent dvds. just simply no mood for anything when im here. i just dun get it.

if im back in sg, i can get used of not having my own room? can i get used not switching on to the air condition for like 24 hrs a day? can i get used of having my things everywhere in the room and clear them only if i want to? can i get used of not having a big wardrobe where i can stuff all my clothes? can i get used to not having a dryer machine to dry my clothes instead of hanging them back in sg for a quicker dry? can i get used of being messy at times and yet no one will say anything? can i get used of not having my own bathroom? can i get used to having my own dressing table with the table kinda forever messy? gosh... so many things will have to change after i resign. but i dun have a choice cos i really cant stand being here any more. the only solution i have thought of is to move out in sg. but i really doubt my mom is gonna agree to that. i believe most of u know how my mom is like. damn.....

also another solution is to get married.... hahaha which i highly doubt that is any possible. but i really wish.... have u seen any gals who is so eager to be married off... hehehe... oh well, that's me i suppose...

i miss my doggie... bailey... and rc...