will u?
felt like giving up on u yesterday... been thinking, is actually quite sad that we dun have much conversation between us beside, movies, mj... when i saw u msging others just upsets me and will think just puts me where i stand in ur heart. that i must really wake up from this one sided love of mine to u. but on the other hand, i can't bear to let go of u.... afterall my love has been going on for pass 13 years for u.
at least from my last msg to u, u replied me 8 hours later... and when i mentioned abt tonight's dinner, u didnt reply me at all, even when i reminded u just now... im still waiting... for u to give me a reply... will u turn up for dinner tonight with me?
u still owe me the phuket trip... which i thought u would be paying for me. but ended up im the one paying it first, while u said will return me and its been 2 weeks. my frens are saying why im so silly... why didnt i dare to ask back from u... and continue waiting till u remember.
seriously, i know i wont bring up this topic of the money unless u ask me... do u even realise it, i dun ask u to return me the money, do u appreciate all these? or are u waiting for me to ask then u return? omg... everything i do is always for u... why u dun use ur heart to see and to feel... it really hurts me even thou u dun say hurtful replies whenever i ask u those questions about us.
im just making myself miserable... and tormenting my emotions. but i will still continue no matter what. i know when i have the patience to wait for u, in return, one day it will be a fruitful one! Just have to continue waiting and not giving up at this point. i've put in too much, can't let go now.....
my heart keeps going up and down... keep looking at my phone, hoping that u will reply me soon... worried that u may not wanna have dinner with me tonight, afraid of disappointment... afraid of being hurt again... each time im just stabbing myself in the heart... pls reply me soon... im trying so hard to act strong. i dunno how much longer i can endure this strong face in front of everybody. i so wanna breakdown and cry my hearts out,who can i turn to? everyone is asking me give u up and move on. why cant for my sake try it out with me. im really looking forward to have a nice dinner with u... my dearest mother mary, please pray for me.
at least from my last msg to u, u replied me 8 hours later... and when i mentioned abt tonight's dinner, u didnt reply me at all, even when i reminded u just now... im still waiting... for u to give me a reply... will u turn up for dinner tonight with me?
u still owe me the phuket trip... which i thought u would be paying for me. but ended up im the one paying it first, while u said will return me and its been 2 weeks. my frens are saying why im so silly... why didnt i dare to ask back from u... and continue waiting till u remember.
seriously, i know i wont bring up this topic of the money unless u ask me... do u even realise it, i dun ask u to return me the money, do u appreciate all these? or are u waiting for me to ask then u return? omg... everything i do is always for u... why u dun use ur heart to see and to feel... it really hurts me even thou u dun say hurtful replies whenever i ask u those questions about us.
im just making myself miserable... and tormenting my emotions. but i will still continue no matter what. i know when i have the patience to wait for u, in return, one day it will be a fruitful one! Just have to continue waiting and not giving up at this point. i've put in too much, can't let go now.....
my heart keeps going up and down... keep looking at my phone, hoping that u will reply me soon... worried that u may not wanna have dinner with me tonight, afraid of disappointment... afraid of being hurt again... each time im just stabbing myself in the heart... pls reply me soon... im trying so hard to act strong. i dunno how much longer i can endure this strong face in front of everybody. i so wanna breakdown and cry my hearts out,who can i turn to? everyone is asking me give u up and move on. why cant for my sake try it out with me. im really looking forward to have a nice dinner with u... my dearest mother mary, please pray for me.
posted by Karen at 11:57 AM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home